Blog Title: This life..

Memory of my first love..

Single rose without thorn, symbol of love at the first sight.

He is the one who taught me about love, and looking back, he is the first guy who really show me that he can be my man, to take care of me as a woman. He still a good friend of mine, even we no longer contact each other, but I have a feeling that he will never let me down if there is a time that I really in need.

Its happened a year before I transfered to Malacca (almost 3 years ago), and shy to admit this, but yes, he is one of the reason that I decided to submit my transfer form.

Before I know him, I like to watched him from far, I don't know why. But, everytime I pass by his kiosk, I will stop, and looking for him, yes sometimes thinking a reason to buy anything at his place. He is not a really good looking guy, if some of you guessing on why I like too watch him, silently. An average in age and looking, that is what can I say. The way he concentrate on his work, I think thats the thing that attract my attention, and yes, he works with all the computer stuff, as his kiosk sell all computer's accesories, I think that is another thing that make me fall in love with him, man with computer's knowledge.

I told my best friend, about him,a few days before I back to Sabah (I start to notice him at one of my school break). Then, without my expectation, my friend, approached him, and tell him about me.That was how everything started..

We keep texting, sending message,each days, knowing each other. He is unofficially big brother in his family, focus of his family after his father passed away a few years ago, which his responsibility is no doubt at all. A silent guy with a few words, don't know how to express his feeling, but charming in his attitude. No flowers or chocolate for me, but he know the song that make me smile.He still remember the date of our first message, a year after that.(Probably he save the message, long time ago).

I remember the second date, the first one was so brief, just a dinner at Mc Donald, and a calm discussion about this relation. The second date, I wore a fine clothes that I ironed perfectly, but I not remember the clothes, in red maybe, red color always bring me a confidence. We watched a Chinese movie that we regret, step out in the middle of the show. He likes pop corn, yes, I remember that.

A guy that careful of his words, and always show that he care. Every time we met, he will try to make sure, he will pay the bill, and aware on who look on me.Always calm and always try to help me in everything I need.

There is once, I lost in the middle of the busiest road at Malacca, Banda Hilir, I just transfered from Malacca on that time, still didn't recognize some roads to do some errands. I confuse, just bought the car and start to learn how to driving again and, yes, on that moment, I am so panicked, I even enter one way road from opposite direction, honks by other cars, I pull over and call him. Yes, he is the hero of that day.

He is a simple guy, who is ambitious and diligent. As a guy who never know how to flirting girls, and hardly loitering with friends, work is his life and the first woman that he love and care more than his life, is his mother.

Thats the thing that make I fall in love with him, and that makes me have to realized, and admitted that he is not ready for a serious relationship. I suffered when he have to admit, that he no longer can care about me, marriage is something that so far in his eyes.

He is good in cooking, he have a dream that he will teach me on how to cook his favorite meal, if one day I become his wife.

And I have a dream to teach him, on how to play bowling. That is the one of thing that I can teach.I still smile while writing this, remembering some of our words in several night before we sleep, via cellphone.

A few days before Idulfitri, 2007. I decided to let him go, unofficially.The break off is one of my bitter memory, there is a few months I forget how to smile and the word 'happy' had been temporary deleted in my database memory.I remember that he almost make a promised to meet my dad on that Idulfitri. But after that we still contacted via cellphone, and have a lunch a couple of times, as a friend, in hope, that he will rethinking about our relation.

A year had passed, many things happened to me, a lot of experienced had taught me about life. So much pain had comes, a few happiness been the antidote. The painful memory of the heart broken had been forgotten.

Two months ago, I really let him go...after the hurt in my heart healed, only left a scar. He is the one who taught me about love, and he is the one who taught me that I can live without love.

We met only to share our first love, been a loner that only know the loneliness as a home. For the first time in our life, we know the meaning of love, the love that only can be keep as one of our memory.

Good bye..my dear.

The unloved angel

Unloved
An angels without wings
With..

A silence cried
A blind pain

You are an angel
That fall in the last hell
Beaten, abandoned and hurts
By all the beast

You are an angel
Heaven of God
Hell by the beast
Left and suffered

You are an angel
Children, wherever they are
Those whose cry never been heard
Those whose pain never been sooth
Cuts that never been healed

Pray for all angels of God
Child who never been loved..

PJ Hilton 16 February 2008

*Note: I found this writings in my purse, then I remember I wrote this after I read the articles about the non-fiction book, Unloved.

Click here for the full article.

My house to be..

After a few days survey on the house somewhere that between a road to my school to my parents house(spend almost a few months keep going to any place that I know have a house for sale, also with my dad help when I at Ipoh), I had decide to buy this house a double storey house.

Okay, I know, look at my financial, the price that is rm148,800, and I will have to pay rm840 permonth, and I will only have about rm700 to spend every month. Sorry, and for all the respective reader, you are being honor that I really talk about my financial details here.For this moment I know, no more hanky panky for me, to go cinema every week will be something that I have to think twice but I dare to decide this after thinking a few times and make some calculation. My dad really like this house, my mom grumblings that my financial will be in doom.

At the first place, yes I want to buy just a small house with price rm118,800, so I will pay rm614 permonth. But the different only rm226!!!

Its worthy for sake of my future, unless I plan to die tomorrow.

The important thing is, I like this house and also my dad! We had pay the deposit and now, will settle the form and agreement.


The pouch can be fit to one and the half car, lol.


The living room.


Master bedroom, yes, that is my dad, he start guessing the 'kiblat' (direction to mecca, for us to perform prayer).


One of the bathroom.


The kitchen.

This house size is 20 x 55, and this is the plan.


For a larger view click on this smaller version.


The best thing is, this house still located at Melaka Tengah, 20 minutes to go to my parents's house and 10 minutes to my school.Hopefully all the process will just fine.

This is what we call pancake!

At last I really have a taste of pancake, Dot make the pancake for me on my last visit. And that syrup not available in our country.At first, in the picture, I asked her to not pour a lot of syrup as I experienced Mc Donalds hot cake, the syrup is so sweet. But then using the maple syrup, its different. After we snapped the picture, I pour some more of the syrup.lol.Dot, she is good in cooking. I love the macaroni cheese. Opss..this entry will just about pancake.

Why pancake? First, in The Sims 2 games, the sim will have some skills, you need to direct them to read and train to get the skill, I like to have Sim that know how to cook, they will cook many type of meal and the best breakfast one of it is Pancake. Thats how I start thinking about that.

Then, last few months (not really remember when, I watched Speed Racer at cinema, and Speed Racer's mom is so good in making pancake.The pancake in that movie is so damn yummy..

Directly after the movie, I keep asking some friends on how to get a pancake, yeah some of them laugh at me as for them pancake is easy to cook, and no, I cannot prepare a pancake, don't ask me, I even not expert in fry an egg!

The only something like a pancake that I taste, is the Mac Donald hot cake...


Yeah, at last I know what the pancake is, when I meet Dot.lol.

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Do you ever know, how I am afraid whenever you say you in stress and tense..
Do you ever know how I feel, when you just hangup the phone when you feel you don't want to talk..

I never say I am afraid, because I still hope in miracle that one day you will talk and pour all your sadness that will empty the sorrow in your heart.

I know you will just piss off whenever I try to give my point, but its okay, at least you will just put the anger on me, not on your life anymore, even for only 2 second.

You always said you don't give a damn if I hurt when you scolded me for my fools, but I always pray that I will never hurt you, I don't want to hurt the soul that been in pain for years...

I want to see your smile..
I want listen to your laugh..

I don't care how I have been a punching bag, because I know how cruel this life to you.

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Ipoh-The perfect good bye..

I am officially leaving Ipoh now..head to my hometown Malacca. Malacca is always in my heart even that place not have the best childhood years memory in me. Only that place is I feel like home. Always proud to be one of Malaccan...

Ipoh, I never dream I will have to stay here. I hate the town, but I love the foods there. Yes, I always love northern folks cooks.

When I step out from the college last week, I went to breakfast infront of Hulu Kinta Primary school, I love Nasi Lemak and Soto there. Then I also stop at Coconut drink stall before I reached Giant. That Pandan Coconut drink is the best coconut drink at Hulu Kinta.

I remember I had cleaned my hostel room (I never do that, I always left a hostel with some messy..haha), because I know on that day the cleaner aunties have to do the overtime work, I saw their exhausted faces.

Meet the guards and say good bye with some apologizes that my roomate and I had return to hostel late, lately.

I even not left any single thing at my room (I always forgetful and had left something that make me to make a U-turn, always, believe me).

Another thing that I love about Ipoh, there is a lot of reacreation park here, even I am a person that always make jogging as the only last activity that I will do in this world, had been so eager to jog in some certain days. Kak Ifa, I know you still remember how we back to hostel with wet clothes because of heavy rain, and we still jogging, only the lightning make us stop..haha (I miss, you a bit sad that you never interest in internet, how if one day you read this blog, and know I had wrote about you in some entries).

Malacca, I feel like many thing that I want to settle that keep reminding me in my head. A plan to buy a house, a plan to deal with the bank to refinance my loans, a plan to go to cinema and a plan to decorates my room (even to take over my brother's room..hahahahahah..laugh like evil).

I will come to Ipoh to visit my sister's family, but no longer as Ipoh's folks.
Good bye Ipoh...now you are in my list as a wanderer.

She-Elvis Costello

She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is

She
She, oh she

KSPK TESL 2008 -The curtain call..

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never ever the same."
u.lee



Specialist course for Teacher 2008 had close the curtain on 14th November. The closing ceremony was attended by all participants and a few lecturers. Finally we still the twelve that survive in this course.

Tell me, who (any one of us) never even a split second thinking to quit this course? None.

Ironically, the ambulance had once have to rescue one of us and the Students Affair Department had chase a few of us out from the hostel, we still return and attended the class.

Although some of us leaving the college on that Friday (sad to leaving each other), with tears and some of us leaving this college with smile widely in our face (knew that the hell is over), but all the colorful memories remained in a special place of our heart.

Lily, thanks for being my roomate and share all the beautiful memories on our 1st semester.I know how you try to learn to have a pets, read the Torey Hayden's books and tasted the Sushi.You taught me how to love and care. Sorry I hurts you that some part of me is just not me, and its can't never change, only the time can tell.

Joyce, I will remember your passionate and the intolerable tolerance that you have for us. If you know how my heart stop and my blood dried on the day I saw your tears. Forgive me that I just give in when it almost end.

Deva, a sweet guy that always create a joy to our class with his 'suara jantan' and the bad handwriting that he has. Don't forget to keep in touch with Miss TJ ya, even she said you had changed since this second semester.

Haniza, the iron lady that have no fear to dad of Doraemon, a mom that always can dance like Bollywood actress, I will always smile whenever I remember your laugh.

Angah aka Carol, I will always remember all your childhood adventure with your only brother. Keep chasing...quitters never win, winners never quit!!! And keep the binocular as one of your mission equipment.

Baby aka Maslina, I am the one who start call you Baby, I still remember the last kissed that I gave you, with tears on your cheek. I know the strength inside your soul that hardly seen by others. I miss the day we lay on our bed and tickling each other.

Yeah..all hostelmates, the clear picture that I have in my mind now, is the memory when all of you sing a song for me while I ironing my clothes, Kak Joyce I know you remember that broken heart song.

Akma aka kakkema, oohhh..how I enjoy most of your humors and funny stories that you always tell us, believe me, sun will stop shine and the world will turn only black and white if you absent in any day of our class.I wish I can hug you like a teddy bear. Go..kak akmar, go..this world are waiting for you, hope will hear you do a PHD soon.

Cheng Bak Eng aka Kak Cheng, a beautiful name (even I don't know mandarin) for an innocent lady, wisdom is a perfect word to describe her, she know and care about us without our conscious. I am regret I treasure this pearl just when I almost reached the finishing line.

Fisyah aka kak Fish,a perfectionist queen with generous heart. I always adore on how strong this lady to carry her daughter and chase her son at the same time or being on the line with her husband that have to work far from Ipoh,speed on the wheel and comfort her daughter on her lap! at the same time. Thanks for all the fun that we have together. I will find one swimming suit like yours as I have crocs shoes almost like the one that you had. You are never alone, believe me, only a selected person will accept a selected person like you.

Dato' M aka Cikgu Mokhtar, once I know you, I had erased the 'typical malay man' signboard on your forehead, replace with 'slow and steady' sign.lol. I wish you can share all the time that we have in our class, but knowing that you have another important mission, I am grateful for all the time that we spend with you, the durians hunting, the politic talk, the old folks advises and for being our hero when we really in need. I am sorry that we only have laksa and kuih peneram to offered when you give a hand to repair kak Ifa's car, we can never pay all the sweats and time that you spent on that day.

Ifa aka Kak Ifa, I never regret on my decision. The last days that we had is so much precious, that make me forget all the pain and sorrow.You come in your magic way, you are one of miracle among all miracles in my life. The day I found you, is the day I found myself.



KSPK TESL IPIP 2008..-The End-

*ps:Those teachers out there who had submitted the form to apply this course (KSPK TESL),please think hundred of time, you never know what you wish for!!

Happy Birthday Najid!

He is officially 6th years old today.


Najid have a fever since yesterday, he looks so skinny on his birthday that we celebrated at Smart Reader Kindergarten. I remember one conversation with him, long time ago, while he change his clothes...

Me:You look so skinny, Najid.
Najid: I am sorry.



This is his birthday cake that we booked 2 days ago at Family cake shop, near the ABC petshop that I always go. I love cake and bread that baked there, delicious at reasonable price. Najid choose his own superhero, Spiderman.


After a lot of thinking,I gave him a racing car with a track for his birthday present, actually..ehem..ehem..I am thinking to keep this toy for me..haha. I told him so many time to really take care of that racing cars.

He like the racing cars, and yeah..it makes me happy that I can give him something that make him happy.

Happy Birthday Najid, I doing this entry so I will not forget his birthday anymore..hehe,hopefully. I am never good in remembering people's birthday.

Enough shopping!!

Actually not much stuff that I bought, but now I know its time for me to stop shopping. What I know, I had bought 3 ladies shoes. From crocs, scholl, and not-remember-the-brand but that one I bought at ISETAN.

The shoes..

Where did I go last weekend?? Part 2

Enter Dot's apartment was like enter a world of Alice wonderland, with all the cute and huge teddy bear, oohh..its just so cozy and warm, the color that she choose for the walls are colorful and lively. And I noticed something that touched me till today..


Her mom bought this from ebay.com, I remember she told me that most of stuff and decoration that I see in her house is from ebay, hmm..internet have so much influence nowadays.

We spent the whole Saturday evening together, talk about our life, and in a few second its just easy for me to feel comfortable with her (its not so usual for me to easy get comfortable with other people and start talking freely) and start talking non-stop, just hope she not bored with me.hehe. We cancel our plan to go cinema, its just so good to spent time at her house. Watching the news, and start condemn what the hell our politician did promoting themselves that the whole world know how idiots they are.

Then the next day, went to shopping on before lunch (lately I feel start comfortable to go shopping and found that now, I know why woman like shopping, there are so many beautiful stuff that waiting for us to explore!!, OMG I am a woman now, haha). First, we went to SWACTH outlet,I have to find a watch that last long on my hand, I can't wear metal, rubber or leather material, it will harm my skin before they worn out, so this time I want to try plastic watch, as advised by a friend.

So I got this..

Its a Christmas edition. Simple and I think, it suits with me.

I found a suitable shoes for me at ISETAN...I am a bit upset that type of shoes that I want is no longer a fashion now,I want a flat and front cover shoes. I bought a shoes that the heel seems stable to me.

Don't have the picture in my notebook now.I feel sad, a bit, finding a shoes is so tough for me, I wish I can wear only a sport shoes to work.lol.

Thanks Dot, for this memorable weekend, looking forward to meet you again, next time!

*Want to write about the last day of my KSPK course but don't have the photos now. I still not finish pack my stuff at hostel.lol.

Where did I go last weekend?? Part 1.

Dot, Digi Man and me from from right, at KLCC.I feel like want to punch and hug that Digi man.

Last weekend was so enjoyable and a really special weekend for me. I went to met a
friend that I been chatting online for about 3 years, we had share some interest since I live at Beluran, so I had promised her many time that once I got the transfer I will try to meet her at KL. Let say that last weekend was a lucky days for me, I got the EPF fund, she free only on that weekend and I really need to find a ladies shoes type for have a good start for teaching next year, no more man shoes for me (actually i feel a bit embarrassing whenever I wore a man shoes then go to ladies shoes shops to find one for me, the salesgirl are disgusting, I knew they laugh on my shoes),I know there is must be a type of ladies shoes that suit with my feet type.The one that I had is not comfortable for me.

Meeting somebody that you never meet but even you had share many thing with her is not easy for me. The first question that come to my mind is, will her accept me? Is not easy to become someone so simple (and been defined as weirdo by some people), we still want to make some good impression when meeting people, but at the same time we want to be just as our self.

Journey to reached Rawang Highway is just easy for me, thanks god that I had made a journey by my own several time from Ipoh to Malacca, but to reached Dot's apartment, I had to pass by the MRR2 and all the busy road that I not used to, follows Dot's car was a tough job for me, as she is a good driver and can speed even in the busiest road. Now I know why my younger brother always warned me to not and never enter the KL or some Selangor areas alone.

Her small apartment are so comfy that I inspired me on how I decorate my own house in future. Will post some pictures on next entry.

Ohh... and the enthusiasm to meet her make I forgot that I have exam on 11th November, actually I know the date but I thought it will on Thursday, hahah. Luckily my sister told me about the day when I decide to call her on that Sunday. At first I only told Aizan that I will going to KL that weekend, I don't want to tell my family as they will worry about me, for them, I never go to KL alone and I understand how they really care about my safety. Thats why I called my sister at the end of that days.

Don't worry the exam is okay.Yeah at least I can answer all the questions.

-to be continue-

Reaching the star

Ok, I got the EPF fund, that I said in previous post (I tried to put the link, but the feeds just not working on the perfect target). Its more than what I expected. Hence, my friend advice me to put some of the amount on investment, I will take that advice. Now, I only have 3k to spend (for new cellphone,clothes, some my notebook gadget, and a holiday to my friend's house)on my own. Other than that investment, I had gave to my mom, dad and keep some for my house's down payment.

Oh..and...and..I had paid all my credit cards outstanding,yeah, I don't have any credit card now, I had closed the credit cards account twice, no more credit card for me, I am kind a person that cannot use the credit card, I don't have self control on using that, even I had repent many time, its will happen again which my spending reach the credit limit, in a few months.

I might be open the new account when I feel that I have the self control (hahaha, when?), or have somebody that really close with me, to control me.hahah.

The exam paper is just okay, even I know I have tendency to fail, but at least, I had tried my best.Next paper is on 11th November.

I will travel to meet a friend that I dying to meet since 3 years ago. Hope I will drive safely, and reach the location.

Till meet you again, journal.

Almost at the end

I will have to sit for exam starting tomorrow. Really hope I can sleep and just wake up when this course really reach at the end. For this moment, I know my experience at the end of course is so terrible.

What life looks like after this course end?

The only thing that I can think is some beautiful dream that still can be somekind of hope in my life. I want to be positive, in whatever I do, I deserve to have dream and hope.

And I don't care about this course anymore.Even though, I learned so much valuable lesson in this course. I know I gain two thing from here, a precious knowledge and precious friends.

This is the last effort I did to step in teaching english track, no more. After this I will create and build my career in teaching Information Technology track. No more turn back, I will start and sprint.Hopefully, there is no hiccup in the starting point.

Life is miserable but now I know what I am capable in.

"The worst experience will be your best experience"

I will remember that line till the end of my life, friend.

Prevention, precaution..haha.

God, please prevent me from this blog...I have to prepare for exam!

Tag..tag

I can't sleep without a nice and comfy bolster, I own 3, at my home.lol.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Oh, i had been betrayed once, We broke up just like that, even he begged an apologize.Sorry I cannot bear a betrayal.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I had many wild dream lately..haha. Hmm..I dream to live in heaven, may I?

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
so many to list here..haha.Khairy Jamaluddin is one in the list.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
buy a house, a really big one, that I can invite the whole malacca to have a wild party.No wonder I never have a billion.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Couple of time,yes it had happened but not so often. Not all the guys that being my best friend can be fall in love with.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Of course being loved by someone, loving someone but not love in return is living hell.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Thousand years is enough.Hahah.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I will try to hate him, with try to remember all the stupid or bad thing that he do, and make a plan for a murderer.

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
Be life in blessing, far from any bad thing and will meet again in heaven.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Somebody break their promise or change a plan in last minute.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Will be 38, have at least one kid, hopefully. And be more patience person.Hopefully.

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
Study for my psycholinguistic paper...that killing my mind, and kicking my lazy butt.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
I steal this tag, she doesn't tag me, but i think she is a nice person.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor is my choice, with money you can buy anything but love, with love and a good companion beside you, life is just enough. Single and rich always remaind incomplete.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Reach my bolster (hugging pillow) and try to sleep again.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Nope, I only give all in marriage. All guys is not worthy to be give all in a relationship.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I will pick any one who is more dominant and more responsible, sorry I am just a submissive type person.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
As long as that person apologize sincerely, unless on a betrayal part, i will forgive but never forget.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
I prefer have a relationship but we have our own space, will it work in relationship?

20. Why LOVE come to be so important to you?
because it is the reason of our existance, we are here because of our God's love.

Miss TJ, here we come!

Happy deepavali, and last night we went to Miss TJ's open house. Of course we are more than willing when she invited us in our class yesterday morning, sadly Deva can't come (we try to make Deva and Miss TJ work, hmmm, go to Miss TJ house is the first step for Deva that we really want he to do...ohhh..hehe) as he have some important thing to do.


As usual an Indian tradition of celebration, Miss TJ welcome us with this beautiful column, she did by her self.


Flower pond? lol. But its so nice isn't it, I think its for the fragrance.


A mixfruits punch as a desert.


Thats us...


Cappati, tosei, curry and more...thanks Miss TJ the foods are so delicious...


I told you, I always spoiled the photo, I don't want other people to capture my picture anymore.


Yes, this is Miss TJ, she is still single and mmm..maybe available..lol. She must be mad at me if she know I put this photo in my blog....heheh. But the photo is so great and tempting me to put this in my blog!.

Back to hostel, almost when the clock near to 10pm. Yeah, I dream of sweet, loving and the gorgeous of our Miss TJ... a sweet dream. That make me wake up late for the class this night.lol.

La..la..la..la...

How many time in your life, you had fall in love with someone but not being love in return?

For whole of my life, i've been rejected twice, I rejected a guy, once, I had crushed..mmm..as long as I remember..hmm 4 times, only one with an evil and I only had real experience of fall in love, once. Three guys had said they want marry me, but only one asked me seriously, and I have no feeling on him.

What a record! Hahaha.

But I still can' forget about him, even I know I have to let him go. I am tired to keep wondering whether he ever think about me or keep a hope that one day he will really say that he loves me.

Man, is a creature that always seal their heart with titanium so women will never know their true feeling, but they keep hint and teasing at the same time.

*On study week now, most of the lectures didn't come to class, so what happen when there is no cat, but mouse everywhere in the library..lol.Still on Deepavali festival mood. Will going to our lovely Miss TJ open house this evening...

Flickr hates me..

Have 3 accounts of flickr, that I just noticed today. After my second account excess the limit, I became bored with flickr, even I know they provide many things thats better than picturetrail.com, that I use recently.

Looking back at all my pictures, remind me on my life 4 years all back. I don't want to delete any of the pictures, yeah, even all the pictures is out of quality, but all of them have something like memory values, precious than anything.

Who said everything is free on internet?

Am I changed?

I like to observe people character, looks beyond their face. One day, I decided that I don't want to be plain and dull. I look my face in the mirror, then I know now, what I want.



Then people said I am changed..and its only for my own satisfaction.

A night to remember

The play is over,and its gave us a night to remember. After all the obstacles that had discouraging us, finally we had gave the best performance that we can do to the audiences. Some lecturers said that they are proud of us and had enjoyed the play a lot, especially the ballroom dance scene. This is the first time KSPK TESL in history of the college had performed in Taman Budaya auditorium, that night was so remarkable for us and this college. Beyond all the bitter and sweet moment, we managed to gave the audiences "The Necklace".


The casts, all pictures that included myself is spoiled, as I am the only one who good in camera among us.hehe.


The Taman Budaya (Cultural Department) people had helped us a lot,yeah even with trick here and there. But most of theories or knowledge about Play, we learn from them.


The crew, we imported the helpers from B.Ed first year students, without them this play will never happened.


Myself and my hubby, in the Play, after the fulldress rehearsal, they said I am more beautiful on that night that we perfomed.LOL.

At last..we had done a good job.

*Note: I really want to post the synopsis or tell the plots of this play, but because of time and wifi constraints, sad to say, I have to keep most of the memories and story in my offline memory. Sorry for that...

The play

*I designed 80% of this pamphlet.

Clockwork ball..

He got that from his kindergarten's teacher at open day. That ball as a reward to finished his coloring work, I was there, with my sister on that open day,yesterday. We had look on the classes and his artwork.

The coloring work was so boring to him, I help him color that frog and wood drawing, as my eyes sparkles when I look on the reward (why its me that become excited?).We finished the coloring task, he feel shy to claimed the reward but I encourage him, because I had hidden agenda.

The clockwork ball in his hand, I whisper to him, that he have to give that toy to me, as I am the one who help him.

He refuse! He cried so loud when I said I don't want to be his friend anymore. I gave up and just let the toy be his.

Its unfair!

Tagged,facebook,high5 and Friendster..

I am sick of all this kind of social network, at first, ya I started from the friendster when one of my old schoolmate request for that and he said most of us using that for communicate, okay fine, and I kinda like this friendster, cause I found many of my friends they, even a crushed when I am 10 years old..hehe.

Then this year, one of my coursemate told us about tagged, and I remember that I had approve some of the requested from my email inbox.

Facebook kinda okay, because I meet many malaysian (the seniors and otai) bloggers there. And I started thinking to join them in the gathering or their theater activity (MASKARA),many of them are short movie producer, I like movies, so why not I try to take a peek on this underground stream.

Tagged is disaster, a lot of people request in my email, urghhh..I am really sick on it. Maybe because I just put my car picture as my profile picture. How if I put my picture as a profile picture, perhaps the unwelcoming request will stop coming..lol!

Sushi king members day 2008

Rm2 per plate, but not all the your favorite sushi been served on that special price. But the queue ...was..err..i never see the scenario when people really wait and queue to be seated in restaurant..but on these 13th to 16th yes..I saw that.

First day..13th november.

Went with Joyce, ate 5 plates each of us.
Only saw Unagi once, when we had a full tummy, and that Unagi gone with a blink.


Second day, went with Kak Fish and her kids, only when she said she will treat me, then I agree to accompany her, I am a bankruptcy till this month pay day.


And Kak Fish managed to got 2 plates for Unagi! There was once she draw her hand to a far sushi line to catch that Unagi for me..wooo..I will remember this..ya Kak Fish.

Last day, Kak Cheng lend my member's card, but can't get a chance to enter Sushi King on that evening, because of very long queue.Pity her.

Yes, sushi king short of Unagi and manpower supplied for this members day, they even not have a time to serve any of cold drink for the customers. Its not a complaint, just want to show how the havoc members days that they have, each year.